An unexpected return to form

Hello! As I sit here on a comfy armchair trying not to doze off in Old Union, I realize that it’s been a while since I’ve last written anything just for myself. Beyond the academic obligations to write papers and finish problem sets and write more papers, I also lost the drive to write, whether that was out of apathy or otherwise. It’s taken quite a bit of soul-searching I suppose, but I’ve gotta say I’m in a much healthier position to write, and I feel so much more energized to because of it. This quarter has definitely had its ups and downs, but I don’t ever want to forget the good memories I’ve made.

This quarter has definitely had its ups and downs, but I don’t ever want to forget the good memories I’ve made.

Where to begin? It’s finals week of Winter Quarter of my sophomore year. I’ve just come out of a CS final, and I have a paper and a sit-down final left to prepare for until I’m free (free!). And in three days, I’ll be leaving with my a cappella group, Talisman, for our Spring Tour to Hawai’i.

Hawai’i! Even as we’re so close to leaving, I still can’t quite grasp the idea yet. I’ve never been to Hawai’i, although I’ve always wanted to go. I’m beyond excited and fortunate that I get to go with Talisman, which has been a calming presence in the ever-changing tides of Stanford, though I can’t say I’m not a little nervous about living with Talisman 24/7 for a week; nevertheless, from the workshops and collaborations we have lined up during our visit, I’m really excited to engage with the cultural and historical legacies there, and just be immersed in the art we’re bound to create and share.

Come to think of it, I think this quarter can really be defined by a lot of firsts, many I’d have never expected. Just two weeks ago, I was part of my very first theatrical production (unfortunately, my cameo in the third grade play about California doesn’t count). Being a part of the vocal and dance ensemble for BLACKstage’s production of The Wiz was a challenge I hadn’t ever anticipated, both physically and mentally, but the feeling of being on stage was something I never felt before opening night, and was something I’ve craved since closing.

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Another first for me: I went to my first concert ever, and to Lorde’s Melodrama World Tour no less. It was a much-needed study break from the doldrums of Week 10, and somehow I fell in love with Lorde even more than I think is humanely possible (please protect her at all costs!). And to go with such a great view where I could almost see her face was incredibly special; thank you Haus Mitt for the subsidized views!

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Some things I also never want to forget: I started using iCal for the first time to get my priorities in order and remember when and where my classes were (it’s honestly a miracle how I managed to remember all my priorities before this quarter); I got to teach a workshop about Disneyland and American mythmaking to my dorm and then go to Disneyland soon after; I was hired to be an Oral Communications Tutor for the Hume Writing Center, which means getting paid to help people do something I love to do; and I was matched to be an RA for Ng House, which I still can’t believe and I’m pinching myself at how excited I am (WizardiNg World, anyone?).

I know I’m really fortunate for having had a quarter where I had the space and capacity to enjoy Stanford fully, even if at times it was in a semi-sleep-deprived state. And with the productions and events lined up for Spring Quarter (Rush, PCN, Vietgone, Spring Show, not mentioning both OCT and RA training and other coursework!), I’m at once absolutely terrified and incredibly excited to tackle it all; but with the right mentality, I think, we’ll be all right.

I’m at once absolutely terrified and incredibly excited to tackle it all; but with the right mentality, I think, we’ll be all right.

So what does this mean for this blog, then? I’m not quite sure; I don’t feel the pressure to write like I did before, but I think it’s better that way. Let’s see what keeps me interested; I’m sure I have many more thoughts and things to share.

Until next time,

Scan Mar 19, 2018 at 7.04 PM

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